the day i will never forget.....after a whole two weeks....it has been the best two weeks.....

I should have never done wat I did….for wat I did has cause myself dearly…loosing the friendship I had deeply adore and appreciate…..for wat I did has cause me the person I love so dearly…but wat is done is done…tears cannot cure the pain for it is always there for me to endure….it was nobody’s fault but mine…being the honest and big mouth me…has cause me so a lot….i fear of seeing the person n I fear a whole lot but I do not know what to do…I feel so lost and hopeless….for i do not know who may I seek help from….ppl say don’t think too much of it…but it rings in my head every second of the day…..is god playing me???? for the first I had was a total screw up for I didn’t hu it was and no pain was felt…but for the second was pure pain…but nothing can be done for our fate has been set by god.i do put him first in life but sometimes it kills me to know that he might be playing with me…..on the day I feel so much sorrow…it rains….on the day where I stress myself out n hope for rain to cool down…it never came….the more the rain pours…the more tears will fall…but no one is to see the tear…for I have to be the tough looking person I am…..but every toughness has his limits…..mine has near its end…but I will still hold on for the ones I love…..i will wait until he comes again….no matter how long it takes….I WILL WAIT!!!!