Its nearly 2 in the morning already….and still I’m not sleepy…probably I feel like crap…I feel as though I have betrayed a fren in return of her distrust on me…but now I dunno how to right the wrong.....i hate being stuck in the middle….i want to trust this fren of mine but its hard for me to do so if she refuse to trust me in return….ppl tell things that r hers to tell me…it makes me angry to think that she doesn’t trust me when I trust her to the fullest….it really disappoints me…..
What I hate even more is that I know a fren hu I thought I could trust…turn out to be someone hu can’t be trusted at all…it hurts to know that I have such frens….but I try not to mind about it to keep my friendship with them…..among all things…friendship is what I treasure most next to my family….i even choose friendship over love….a friendship with a person is far more precious than anything else….loosing a fren over something that is not possible is just stupid…..
I hope what I just said doesn’t affect any of my frens….for this ppl that I am trying to say is someone hu I wish doesn’t exist anymore ….instead a new person is formed….
I really wish to tell someone wat I know….but it seems to me that its quite impossible until the right time comes….
MY DAY
Had band this morning….it was okay…quite fun…as usual….i’ve gotten my tickets for band idol already…I don think I have much to say about how my day was cuz until now I still feel like crap….i’m sick with a sore throat n blocked nose….meaning flu lar….my whole back aches cuz on Friday night….val help me ‘kau sua’….first she did it for dad….she use the bowl…..since I ‘juak tiok’….thats the only way to get better faster….so I got it too….now… I’m bruised at the shoulder n back….
So yeah…it hurts….badly….especially when the juniors kept poking my back…they were occasion I will suddenly scream out a loud squeal……this week will be the last week of tuition I think…since it’s the last week of the month….last Friday was my last at pbk…supposedly to be this Friday but since I can’t make it the coming Friday….it was my last there until next year starts again…whats left is mr.teo’s tuition n mr.s hon….
We had big band today too….it wasn’t all that bad…got new ppl playing…got upcoming performance in December…..played a few new songs and some old ones….it was very nice and jazzy….as usual…me n priscilla r the noisy ones….kept teasing sui hui n her aaron…..LOL….
Anywayz….i guess that’s all for today lar….nth much oso….actually its more like not much actions but a whole lot of thinking…..things like ppl said to me…. ‘I don’t think u really love him, its just a crush’…the silly thing is that if it is just crush y issit that its so hard to let go…..if u ask me…if its nothing…it’ll be just like the DIXON incident….letting him go was not hard….it was clear n fast….although it was said we were together for awhile…..i do not think so…neither does he…we’ve never really had anything if u ask me….we were just probably close fren for awhile….well….i can’t help to say that I’m happy to see him with wendy now…..glad he found someone hu suits he better….happy for wendy oso…for she was one of my close frens in those time when I was ditched by certain frens…..
It’s a wonderful thing to have plenty of frens n not to just rely on one group of frens…..
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