What hurts and what doesn’t????

Today I went out to watch NARNIA with Jude and Jane…it was alrite…we met p at them at star at 1.30pm but we couldn’t get tickets to the 2pm movie so instead we got the the 4.30 show….so practically I hang out with jude for nearly two hours….he told me his whole camp experience which was rather interesting…den we had this idea that mr.lim might be in school for meeting so we walked to school….den we found out he wasn’t den we we’re just hanging around in st. jo’s school grounds….den we bum into ikmal n some other form 3 red crescent member and Jude had a good chat with him after he told his silly ghost story to me….i on the other hand was talking to ikmal bout l ots of things I didn’t quite wanna talk bout….such as the rumors bout Vicky and den….he starts talking bout things that I have finally got over bout…the thing is that…after talking to him I don’t know which hurt more….knowing the fact that u miss this person and u have to see him for one whole year, three times a week or….hearing it from some one who u dislike that the guy u like is crushed cuz he still can’t get a date with this gurl he has a crush on….den…. this idiot which i dislike had to go asking me question that I don’t like answering again….same question that I have been avoiding since hols started…..den…he starts making his assumption again….**** this guy man…doesn’t he know when to back off cuz its not his problem….can’t he just bloody hell shut his trap….even if he knows a lot of things u can always shut up rite…..wad the hell is wrong with him…..as soon as the conversation finish I can’t wait to leave…..**** him man…he may be a smart ass in form 2 but hu the hell cares if ur so bloody irritating……I know I sucked in my studies…doesn’t mean that u can bla all u want that u know all this and that…****ed if anyone cares if u know that now…its not like ur gonna use it yet….**** man…..

I shouldn’t be doin this….i’m turning all my sadness to rage….which is bad….if I’m sad I should talk to someone but I dunno how to talk bout it…..but I can’t help either cuz I finally got myself to let go n go on but I don’t think I really did…that’s probably the true reason y I’m so enrage….this sucks…but honestly…that boy is bloody busy body…its no wonder jude hates him too….well….i don quite understand y jude dislike band members in his school but I don’t quite give a damn if he hates this boy….cuz he has all the right too…..he’s nothing but a busy body….one of this days…he’s gonna get a really hard slap for his busy bodyness…..and it ain’t gonna help if he’s gonna go back crying to his mama’s arms….mommy’s boy alrite…..well.. sowee…never ever get on my nerves….not only he has spoil my day he nearly spoil my movie as well….Argh…to hell with him…

Going to back to my day…..well actually that was my day…..i think I did all my x’mas shopping already….i’ve only left with present for my foster sis….my biological sister’s I dunno yet..hehe….it wouldn’t mean anything if I bought them something cuz practically there the ones giving me money…hehehe…but newayz….i have my own way of repaying them that doesn’t need money….

I think yesterday was a better day then today…..went shopping with aggy n angie…..their lau kung’s was just side kicks…..hehe….but newayz…I left early….they went on pak tohing…..so its better if I wasn’t there….don’t have to be light bulb……yea…I think that’s just about it this time….till next time….

MERRY X’MAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!!!