sadness

it has been a very tough week....i got news bout michelle on wed nite...the nite before our last two papers...i was shocked...but nothing could be done....only tears flowed....sad to hear that a person such as her has been call back to the lord....

so much has happen ever since her passing...so much tears had flowed...one thing says it all...saturday was the worst.....it was michelle's funeral n yet it was also our perfomance day...it was certainly not wad we all had in mind....we weren't expecting that to happen either but it did n nothing could be done anymore for wad is done is done.....

we were nice enough....we went against our orders for them....we trusted them n yet they disa point us......they did not think of our feelings....wad r the effects of their actions against us....first time in 5 years....i saw my frens cry for band....first in 5 years i saw claire, aggy n gg cried.....among the few ppl i know that appeared to be the strongest cried in front me....nothing hurts more when u see ur frens crying in front u....as we lay on each others shoulder....we comfort ourselves n pulled back the tears to be strong for our juniors.....we know we had to go on with the performance whether we liked it or not.....its our priority for that day itself....

sigh...but claire was rote...we didn't need them...we made through the performance without them....and it was alrite....but still it didn't cover up for the pain they had cause us....seeing us leaders crying for juniors are too much but nothing could hold those tears any longer for the pain they had cause us at that particular moment when we needed them so badly....where were they when we needed...why do they hurt us...wad had we done to them before that they treat us this way.....

questions asked...but no answers to them....tears flowed like the flowing river.....pain as deep...but wad is done is done......